Wild And Wired - To Calm And Centered

Sometimes my life doesn’t feel like my life?  As if someone has literally come and hijacked my old persona.  Where did that hyper focused, extremely type A, detailed oriented, always TOO BUSY for anything remotely relaxing or enjoyable, woman evaporate too?

No longer do I run or live my life by an insane amount of calendar reminders only allowing 2 hours on Friday night for a dinner out with hubby, and a quick Sunday morning breakfast at the local diner before heading out to host open houses.  I really do miss that diner though!   For the most part my husband and I lived parallel lives, both expending far more energy outwards, with very little if any energy filling our cups. 

So many of us live our lives saying when I retire, I will go do this, or go enjoy that.  I don’t know about you, but I happened to open up Facebook this week and too many young souls are leaving this world.  My beloved former assistant lost her 46-year-old brother, a friend of ours passed away suddenly in his 50’s.  We are not promised that we will make it to our government decided retirement age.  I’m not naïve I understand in order to thrive we must make money, but I guess I am questioning at what expense? 

I gave a lecture yesterday to 6 brave woman who had left their abusers.  I talked about CHOICE.  I talked about LEAKING energy vs. CONTAINING energy.  These young women made a BOLD CHOICE to leave their partners, most if not all have zero money, they are opting to share a bed in a cramped shelter room with strangers rather than remain in a hopeless and abusive situation.  They are CHOOSING themselves!  They are not waiting or hoping.  They inspire me!

We have choices on where we live, where we work, how we work.  Often, we forget we even have a choice, we assume this is the way life is, and we don’t challenge the status quo.

What if you chose to approach life from a different angle?  What if you realized that all along you have choices?  That you can live anywhere!  You can choose the type of work you want!  You can look for remote jobs, internet jobs or jobs that light up your soul!  Remember what lights up one soul is going to be different for each person.  My husband LOVED roofing…that definitely would not be LIGHTING up my soul lol.

In 2022 I realized I had choices.  I realized I no longer wanted to live in a city.  I wanted less noise, less traffic, more trees, more nature, more calm and more peace.  It was like I could no longer operate at the speed I had been going.  I realized I could choose to run my career at a much smaller scope, so that I could calm my frazzled nervous system.  I made different decisions regarding finances, and learned to prioritize what we really needed vs. wanted.  

This week I have had a lot going on and I felt that old familiar feeling in my body.  A tension rising in my jaw.  I lived with that tension for 20 years and I use to state “I operate daily in low level anxiety”.  I choose to pay attention to my body now, and I took the cue and slowed down.  I have no desire to ever burn out again I my life.  I CHOOSE to replenish and contain my beautiful energy vs deplete it.

I could go on and on, but I will leave you with this.  Remember you have a choice!